for me

I feel so out of it today. I partly blame my allergies for my incoherency, but stress has bogged me down as well. Perhaps the lack of nutrition I've been getting also has something to do with it. Hunger likes making me into something horrid. Even my spiritual walk hasn't been as it should.
It's as if I'm deteriorating, on the verge of cracking. Like at any moment my sanity could slip away from me. What a scary thought of losing grip.
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God, I need you to make sense of it all. I know I'm the one who drifted.
^{Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it.
Prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart O take and seal it
Seal for thy courts above}


This song speaks volumes to me right now.
^{I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness.}
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There is comfort amidst this turmoil. There is hope during the uncertainty. The spiritual walk isn't always a walk in the park. Treading on dark valleys is inevitable. It's not that I'm sad. I'm just tired. Tired in so many ways. Running this race and fighting the good fight. Quite frankly I'm out of breath and feeling lightheaded and faint. Lord, I need your strength.