live like you're dying

I told myself I couldn't possibly consider moving away from everyone I know, but now I'm having second thoughts. Do I stay and be separated from my family or do I leave too? This wouldn't be so hard if the holidays weren't coming around the corner. Masakit isipin. There is only one thing really that would make me truly want to leave. If that does happen, I'll take the opportunity to start a new life somewhere new. I'm not taking for granted what I have right now, because I don't know how long I'll have it for.