30 days left [reset]

So blown. As you may have noticed, my days left in my countdown increased. >_< It's as if the day will never come. I walk as one condemned with my head hung like a person who just found out they have cancer. I can't even force a smile. I would take nap and sleep away this cumbersome feeling, but I'm at the library right now, because I need to start my paper that is due this Friday. I'm sitting across this chic who looks like she's down in the dumps too. Or maybe she's just bored. My head is starting to hurt now. Ugh. I need something to cheer me up. Before I went to the library, I was going to go to Sakura's to get some sushi. I remembered they open at 4pm. But when I got there, it said they open at 4:30pm. It was only 4:11pm then. I didn't want to sit there and wait, so I just went straight here. *Sad face*. I wish I could just sleep for a whole month, so when I wake up this will all be better. I must sound mega whiny right now, but it is the truth.

Plan of strategy? Maybe I should just stop waiting. Maybe I should just stop looking forward to it. Maybe I shouldn't care so much. Maybe I should just give up. Maybe then, will the time go by quickly. Easier said than done. Or should I just keep chasing pavement?



"What we wait for, however, is far less important than what God is doing while we wait. In such times He works in us to develop those hard-to-achieve spiritual virtues of meekness, kindness, and patience with others. But more important, we learn to lean on God alone and to “rejoice and be glad” in Him.

F. B. Meyer said, “What a chapter might be written of God’s delays! It is the mystery of the art of educating human spirits to the finest temper of which they are capable. What searchings of heart, what analyzings of motives, what testings of the Word of God, what upliftings of soul...All these are associated with those weary days of waiting, which are, nevertheless, big with spiritual destiny.” — David H. Roper

Be still, My child, and know that I am God!
Wait thou patiently—I know the path you trod.
So falter not, nor fear, nor think to run and hide,
For I, thy hope and strength, am waiting by thy side. —Hein"