in-soo-fi-shen-sees

I'm ashamed to say that I've been wallowing in self-pity lately. Ever since I wasn't able to participate in a Praise Night event that our praise team was invited to, I've been feeling so useless and dispensable. If only I was more talented, maybe I'd be of more value to the team. T_T

The event took place last night at a friend's church. It was really a blessing for me because, even though I was part of the audience singing with a heavy heart, it was then that I realized how unworthy I was. My attitude towards my non-participation in the Praise Night and my attitude towards certain people have been wrong. Perhaps this is why God didn't allow me to help lead worship. I know that leading worship is a big deal, and it requires a clean heart and a pure conscience.

It's been a humbling experience. If God wants to use me, He will, but if He doesn't, then He won't. I should just simply count it a privilege whenever God does want to use me, instead of pout and curl up into a ball when He doesn't.
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Current status: humbled